Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Christmas Folly


I hear the bells on Christmas Day
Their old, familiar carols play,
And wild and sweet
The words repeat
Of Peace on Earth, good will to men!
-Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Friday, December 5, 2008

: St Nicholas :

-JRR Tolkien


'St Nicholas, mon bon patron,
Envoyez-moi quelque chose de bon.'
-French St Nicholas Prayer

Friday, November 28, 2008

Different Kinds of Leftovers...

Well... the carcass has been cleaned and there are the frenzied shopping daze to look forward to ahead with crowds of mindless fiends grabbing for everything in sight.

I still find it amazing, seeing how we're supposedly in an economic crisis, that the ambivalence and deep-set denial just phases no one- $$-away! Then there are those who are really bunking-down and sacrificing themselves for their deprived children as the NYtimes wastes commentary on-- what's a woman to do if she can't buy those designer jeans-- oh, I'm going to cry!

Meanwhile Mumbai has it's own beast running amok and I had to stop a moment and take a double take of the New Agey Deepak Chopra suddenly sounding like a connected and interested SA native speaking from a level of genuine concern. Of course he's broadcasting from the comforts of Cali, (and I think I almost was hearing some of the dripping hooey trying to seep out with the "inflammation creates more inflammation" prognosis) as most of us can just meekly observe, shudder and keep our thoughts with those caught up in within this unfolding tragedy.

Think it's time to stop "wishing" things will get better and start engaging in much more profound and meaningful ways that can bridge dialogue and further understanding of just what is at stake here, how our politics and policies and $$ affect all of us in means we just don't want to contemplate fully... especially when our stomachs remain full- satiety can dull one to complete complacency.

-t

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

: Ringraziamento Felice :


And the prayer, which my mouth is too full to express,
Swells my heart that thy shadow may never be less,
That the days of thy lot may be lengthened below,
And the fame of thy worth like a pumpkin-vine grow...
- John Greenleaf Whittier

Monday, November 17, 2008

Back To Reality...


... I have to tell myself at this point what I loved in this man: his boundless energy and curiosity; his ability to appreciate small mundane urban things, like gratings, corners, cast-off objects; a kind of stolid determination and ingenuity in exploring unfamiliar terrain, both artistic and theoretical, his melancholy face, his sensitivity. Does one have to articulate such thoughts or do they become apparent in everyday interaction, through gesture and look? Did I assume too much or was he simply not receptive? Was I really so parsimonious with look, gesture, and word? ---------

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Fall, Leaves, Fall



Fall, leaves, fall;
die, flowers, away;
Lengthen night and shorten day;
Every leaf speaks bliss to me
Fluttering from the autumn tree.
I shall smile when wreaths of snow
Blossom where the rose should grow;
I shall sing when night's decay
Ushers in a drearier day.
-Emily Bronte

Saturday, September 20, 2008

: Mordego :


Are you willing to be sponged out, erased, canceled, made nothing? If not, you will never really change.

-D.H. Lawrence




Monday, September 15, 2008

Friday, September 12, 2008

Ozymandias

I met a traveller from an antique land
Who said: Two vast and trunkless legs of stone
Stand in the desert... Near them on the sand,
Half sunk, a shatter'd visage lies, whose frown,
And wrinkled lip and sneer of cold command,
Tell that its sculptor well those passions read
Which yet survive, stamp'd on these lifeless things,
The hand that mock'd them and the heart that fed:
And on the pedestal these words appear:
"My name is Ozymandias, king of kings:
Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair!"
Nothing beside remains: round the decay
Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare,
The lone and level sands stretch far away.

-Percy Bysshe Shelley


Monday, September 8, 2008

Wild One


The Eat Local Challenge has started in our state this past Friday and runs until Sunday. It's a ripe time within the season to put you money where your mouth and taste buds should be- straight to the source vs mega-agri-biz farms that have monopolized and literally ruined not only the soil and land, but generations of farmers that have tilled the Earth and provided for countess mouths and minds.

Raj Patel's book Stuffed and Starved and continued efforts are blazing nicely ahead and there is a nice tidbit over at Grist Mill worth the read.

Bonne Appetite!


Never does nature say one thing and wisdom another.
-Juvenal

Friday, September 5, 2008

: nostalgique :

Ahh... the past couple of weeks watching both the DNC & RNC have jolted me to such inspirational highs, and this week, to such demoralizing lows- bleh!

Truly this has been the biggest comedic performance (ultimately damaging and tragic if to come to pass by mindless voter-monkeys!) I have seen drawn out to such oafish lengths, then blasted upon every media outlet for "analysis" and discussion that bears a resemblance of a dog chasing its tail. Nothing but the Charlie Brown voices in the background I hear rambling idiotic God-fearing invocations from relatively dare I say, young individuals. What gives with all of this rubbish? Where we're heading I fear more.

Suddenly I'm reminiscing my teenage angst-ModPunk-imbued days, guess we're all regressing a little these days.

'That's Entertainment'! La-la-Laaaa...

Friday, August 29, 2008

Guess What We Did Today?

Eggplant subji and some beautiful bruschetta-- that'll do it!
___________________
Pray for a good harvest, but continue to hoe.
-Old Saying

Saturday, August 23, 2008

The Black Cow & Galliano


In case you've missed the 100th anniversary of the RBF Chicagoist would like to bring you up to par on this summer concoction by "properly saucing" it up a notch.

I'll admit I haven't relived the good 'ol A&W days in awhile, but the pairing of a quality root beer (sorry A&W you get the slip here) with some decadent custard and a bit of vodka and Galliano got me inspired enough to test but not drive. Delicieux!

For the kiddies just minus the spirits and they will be quite jubilant as well and glad you remembered this classic rendezvous. Though I do dream a bit of the drive-thru days with rubberized-hooked trays brought to the car (how awfully American is that?!) And the lama that was fenced off in the play area adjacent to the A&W stand who would spit on those who were less worthy.... oy vey!

Gather these and please:

*2 oz Galliano

1 oz Vodka

Root Beer

1 oz Heavy Cream

Combine Galliano, vodka and heavy cream in a tall glass filled with ice. Fill with Root Beer – we prefer Sprecher, but for a Chicago taste, try Goose Island (Ed. Note: Berghoff can work, as well. All three of these are free of high fructose corn syrup). Stir to combine. Top with a dollop of whipped cream, preferably homemade, and a root beer barrel.

For a cute dessert, serve this cocktail alongside a miniature old-fashioned root beer float. Fill a shot glass with small scoops of ice cream and another with root beer – serve them together and let your guests pour the float*


-cheers

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Swollen Summer


Afoot and lighthearted I take to the open road, Healthy, free, the world before me, The long brown path before me, leading wherever I choose
............................................
From this hour, freedom! From this hour I ordain myself loos'd of limits and imaginary lines, Going where I list, my own master, total and absolute, Listening to others, and considering well what they say, Pausing, searching, receiving, contemplating, Gently, but with undeniable will, divesting myself of the hold that would hold me.
Walt Whitman, USA, from Song of the Open Road

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Brown Turns a New Hand onto a Classic...



... and the myth, magic and language were all pleasurably retained.

Instead of becoming cultural wallpaper, William Brown tweaked A Midsummer Night's Dream in just the right places while leaving intact Shakespeare's words, which I just want to revel in as long as possible. Like old sages and bards whose wise, snippy wisdom has faded into dust, your ear senses something intuitively divine and enchanting-- it's timeless and invigorating.

There was a time when words carried much more strength and power, and still made sense-- even the proclaimed difficulty in Shakespeare's texts continues to transcend.

Puck-Robin Goodfellow is punked-out, Lysander's horrendous perm and retro 60's attire suit his charming ways; Demetrius is an ultimate uber-nerd chasing love while Bottom's hammish self is transformed into an ass.

Brown took some chances, and I'll let others grumble their complaints, but much to his credit they were timely for a modern audience and nearly everyone was out of their seats at the end when Athens comes strong at the end with a celebratory traditional Greek dance.

An amazing evening performance in such a great setting.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Deep in the Woods...


... for the annual gathering-performance. There has been some "modernizing" of the cast look which could really blow. I guess it's just so damn difficult to have both the language of Shakespeare and appearance jostling those give-it-to-me-easy-fast-and-mindless masses, c'est ca.

" I know a bank where the wild thyme blows,

Where oxlips and the nodding violet grows,

Quite over-canopied with luscious woodbine,

With sweet musk-roses and with eglantine."

Act ii. Scene. 1

Monday, August 4, 2008

When Literature was Savored Slowly- like a Good Meal


There seems to be a renewed interest in "lit-crit" lately which I find encouraging and necessary both to counterbalance the plethora of crud saturating every nook and cranny of online book sales, cult-like Oprah book clubs, self-publishers, mega-chain book stores and frankly overly-inflated, sometimes downright pompous writer-wannabes; or as Seaton writes in his review of Praising It New in the WSJ the "many writers with literary pretensions who are now hyped beyond their merits or neglected in spite of them".

True, the fact that you can find a bombardment of books, clubs, etc. does highlight something positive about a possible increased readership and interest in actual reading, and maybe even more hopeful, a true engagement with the author's work-- but I'm still skeptical. Even I find myself at times drawn to some of the more banal, cliched tripe that is more like fast-food drive-thru gut/mind rot and literally everywhere vs the "source of wisdom and delight" that in the past seemed more the norm, or at least what a writer was striving for, even when dealing with topics/characters of grave intensity and depth.

I feel there is a need for a more penetrating exploration of the written word. A slowing down to actually take in and digest what the writer has skillfully crafted and prepared for the offering. Do you sit graciously at the table and use napkin, fork, spoon and knife? Or do you just devour without a breath in between, a utilitarian taste with no sense of texture, scrambling to just inhale without any discrimination or even some bit of critique and complementary discussion?

Northrop Frye's Anatomy of Criticism is a good reference and counterbalance to read and read again I find, even now. Harold Bloom's foreworded thoughts end quite poignantly:

"If I live long enough, I fully expect individual computers themselves to declare their possession of personality and genius, and to bombard me with the epics and romances of artificial intelligence. In all this proliferation, I hardly will to Frye for comfort and assistance. But, where shall I turn? ... Frye's criticism will survive because it is serious, spiritual, and comprehensive, but not because it is systematic or a manifestation of genius. If Anatomy of Criticism begins to seem a period piece, so does The Sacred Wood of T.S. Eliot. Literary criticism, to survive, must abandon the universities, where "cultural criticism" is a triumphant beast not to be expelled."

Oh... and like with any good meal, don't forget to have an excellent wine in tow!

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Bonjour Aout!


So it's August... where has the Summer gone? Ho-hum!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Moonlit Cove - Albert Pinkham Ryder


Sorrows of the Moon

Tonight the moon dreams in a deeper languidness,

And, like a beauty on her cushions, lies at rest:

While drifting off to sleep, a tentative caress

Seeks, with a gentle hand, the contour of her breast;

As on a crest above her silken avalanche,

Dying, she yields herself to an unending swoon,

And sees a pallid vision everywhere she'd glance,

In the azure sky where blossoms have been strewn.

When sometime, in her weariness, upon her sphere

She might permit herself to sheda furtive tear,

A poet of great piety, a foe of sleep,

Catches in the hollow of his hand that tear,

An opal fragment, iridescent as a star;

Within his heart, far from the sun, it's buried deep.

-Charles Baudelaire

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Apricot


A summer Taos sunset in your hand.
The weight of a small child's fist,
a girl, resisting sleep
as she sleeps.
The shape of a chicken angel's egg
Eros's lovely clefted backside
in velvet. Fleshy
as a horse's lazy, lower lip.
A faraway fragrance:
juniper in gin, that slow gin
kiss.
What God saw on the eighth day, and ate, and said of it--
way good.
The woody stone we worry-gnaw when death's near,
when we're toothless again as babies,
trying to keep a great thought
small.
-Deborah Slicer

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Underwater Mind

-Alex Kirkbride


For the human mind, the crossing from air down into water has powerful effects. Unable to smell, losing accustomed gravity and losing our air hearing, it is surprisingly difficult to carry memory across the the border... Underwater, writes Cousteau, "one forgets the sun. One forgets a lot." All the pretty, dry concerns are left to the squabbling gulls. The air world is hard to recall on the instant of merging in the saltwater world we knew before. It is enigmatic that memory can meet amnesia here, how completely and instantly we forget the world of air, our corrugated corner of earth and our dry lives, but seem to remember, opaquely, as if memory coursed through our salty veins, that this ocean was once our home.

-Wild An Elemental Journey

It's also easy to forget to be living presently wherever one is, completely and fully in the moment and yet simultaneoulsy clean the bathroom, wash the dishes, and take the garbage out... ho-hum.

My mind feels submerged... the rain subsided, but flash floods are to be welcoming us once again tomorrow.


Monday, June 9, 2008

What the Hell is Summer Going to Bring?


The writer's first job is not to have opinions but to tell the truth... and refuse to be an accomplice of lies and misinformation. Literature is the house of nuance and contrariness against the voices of simplification. The job of the writer is to make it harder to believe the mental despoilers. The job of the writer is to make us see the world as it is, full of many different claims and parts and experiences.
It is the job of the writer to depict the realities: the foul realities, the realities of rapture. It is the essence of the wisdom furnished by literature (the plurality of literary achievement) to help us understand that, whatever is happening, something else is always going on.
-Susan Sontag - At the Same Time
_________
"Something else" for me is definitely "going on". Right now its septic-pumps working overtime from the massive downpour that Mother Nature has unleashed.
Remember that brown grass I was griping about awhile back? Well the grass is not brown anymore!
The nasturtiums are blooming and everything is lively and lush. The robins have been utterly in heaven with worm feeding-frenzies out of this world, and it's simultaneously an overload of H2O but at the same time so seeping with Life and deep earthiness that I find myself taking in such deep, long inhales that are quite sensational to my senses.
Summer is officially ended the school year for Kiddies and I'm also left scrambling with ideas of generating extra green of another sort and working on some tidbits of my former art pieces that have suffered neglect (I am thankful our basement has not flooded... but that damn pump is beginning to annoy me!) I'm attempting to be both practical but not have myself getting in over my head, which is what seems to usually happen, then too much-- too much.
So a balancing of getting more things in the ground, some deck construction if dear brother would be so kind to actually complete this season! and some travels to further Clear the Mind and regroup. I've been ruminating on the novel of Chapatis and ..... ?? to get seeded in some shape and form for some time, and I guess this summer should be enough of a kick in the behind to at least commit to some solid writing at least every day so the characters stop screaming to me in my dreams.
c'est ca

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Ranting is another thing...

"... the impulse to kill him becomes so strong sometimes, when I think of the way he's stolen my life and trampled all over it and then thinks it's sufficient if he reads a few highbrow books, that I don't know how to get over it. I clench my fists together to keep from rushing at his greasy yellow head, or throwing something into that noisy mouth, forever boasting and screaming. If I could kill him and that child... I'd gladly do time for it. But what would the kids do? Go to an asylum? No one could stand it."

-Christina Stead The Man Who Loved Children

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Daily Grind

Well I'm endlessly procrastinating and getting my arse in gear to write more than I have been-- well as you can see it's not going too well.

Gardening lately has been keeping me gone-- you might remember, the grass. Well I've been reseeding and applying composted as well as manure and other goodies to begin counteracting the damaging winter (apparently it's "snow mold"-- but that is coming from the evil TruGreen-- so I would not put too much weight upon that dx).

The apple and cherry trees are doing well and quite beautiful with their dotted blossoms, but still no raised garden bed as of yet. I'm not doing too well in getting it all together, but a little here and a little there. Pulling and replanting some prairie grasses, added more composted soil to some of the border flower beds, etc.

Picked up A Guide to Writing Fiction because I need the extra nudge, and living in a city that neither appreciates (though constantly touting all the usual cliches to the contrary) good writing, reading, or Art for that matter. Heading back to finish my Masters work right now is impossible at the moment-- I'm looking for other means of being creative and keeping my brain engaged.

The order of business is to keep writing-- anything. And try to get back to painting and some new work accomplished.

So the blog is an annoying litany of basically nothing in particular at the moment, and will probably go in and out of many topics, genres, and ideas. Mostly I may start just daily journaling about the most mundane and day-to-day "stuff".

Will see what shape that begins to take, if any...


The desire at the start is not to say
anything, not to make meanings, but
to create for the unwary reader a
sudden experience of reality.
-VALERIE MARTIN-

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Before the Fall


It is impossible not to wonder what Hughes was really planning and wishing with regard to his marriage at the time Plath killed herself. The statements to be found among his papers are wildly contradictory: that she was a wonderful woman but impossible for him to live with- that "it was either her or me"; and, to the contray, that he and Plath were on the verge of a reconciliation, that they had even shared a bottle of champagne to celebrate the end of hostilities.
... Both of them were still the walking wounded, in January 1963, and the wounds were raw.
Suppose, then, that Plath had survived, and she and Hughes had divorced. What would have been the consequences for Plath's status as a writer? Anne Sexton had a response to that question: she identified Plath's suicide as an enviable career move.
suicides have a special language
Like carpenters they want to know which tools.
They never ask why build
pg 216-17 Her Husband

Friday, April 25, 2008

Grass Is Not Green

So my mind continuously is wrapped up on the grass-- that damn brown grass. No matter how much seed, wonderful rich organic composted soil, and wishful wishing I do; and even when the rainfall from last night and today soaked the bumpy land-- zip.



I just see brownish-white, ugly patches that look as though I've been neglectful and absent and I have not.



My eyes take scrutiny to the neighbors on either side of our home and my frustration grows even deeper, unlike the grass seed. Their lawns seemed to have survived the long, snow plunged winter, and lawn-care vans crazily scribble on their adverts that our lawn is plighted by "snow mold" and other such furthering irritating diagnosis's that only add to my immediate sense of urgency.



Patches of deep rich brownish-black soil exposed from hungry squirrels who frolic up and down the trees playing with each other and chipmunk holes... why does our lawn seem overly magnified and a banquet for the spring frenzy? While I too rejoice in the renewal of the season and keep my solo bird feeder stocked to entice aviary beings, even wolves and foxes have found an ease to scavenging in the backyard in the urban demographic.



I have no qualms with our extended living entities-- I welcome them. But the grass just burns something so obsessive into me. And once you get started you have to keep going with the maintenance and upkeep.



Upon purchasing this home I could have cared less about the grass and have begun the slow process of planting prairie grass and naturalizing with other more native plants. Seems more money will be required to make the landscape more sustainable and less time consuming, allowing the natural cycles to take-- even getting a vegetable bed in is going to take more work since the veil of green carpet has now turned. The builder was so cunning and The grass was already freshly rolled out, bright green, lush and healthy. We were none the wiser and so very in love with the place that the grass was furthest from our minds

Thursday, April 24, 2008

A Day Like Any Other...

For now I haven't much to post-- I know dreary and dull as it is to waste your time.

Working on the continuation of ideas and journaling of random rumblings... until the rain clears and my mind finds some inspiration.